Another Day...Wot did I Do To Deserve this?

Once again, I Opened my eyes in this world.

LOVE.

That was on my mind.  After a Plethora of kisses distributed freely (ALL OVER) My Wife, without a hint of expectancy on my part, I stumbled my way to the ofc. where the miserable computer awaits my next command.

I've thot about the peeps that have related to me wot is Love:

"I'll Die For You!"

"Can't They See wot I Go Thru For Them"

"It hurtz"

hello.

Knock KnocK!

While Love IS About Sacrifice, it is also about...LOVE.

We've Learned, Here, that Time together is NOT GUARANTEED AT ALL.

We gotz these control issues here on Earth, and We Think That Control is Necessary........ Necessary?

I Have a Business Acquaintance that maintains that you GOTTA be Like this or That.....I was seen to be too aloof and happy, and that he has talked to 'Others'. about this.

It'z Inappropriate, I Learned.........Hmmmmm.

Now, I'm the kind that will go to the ends of the earth for you, and Itz a VERY FAMILIAR PLACE FOR ME.  I Also have learned, as evidenced by MY ENTIRE LIFE'S WORK, that I am a person who LIKES to see others free of Pain...I've Caused quite a bit, too, that IT IS NOT possible for ME to Fix it...some things Can't Be fixed, for sure.

By The Way, I DO NOT OWN ANYTHING..Itz on Loan While I'm Here, Visiting Earth.  You are, She is, it is, Days are...ALL ON LOAN.....

When I Changed Myself, a Few Days ago, to be less friggin emotional , I KNEW ALREADY That She is NOT Responsible for My Feelings.


The detail here is that we ALWAYS THINK, FEEL, ACT....In THAT VERY ORDER.

"He's Being that Way again, Oy Vay!!.....""What the Hell do you want to be so mean for"".....then the feeling of Disgust, and a Lump in you of "It's the Same Old Sh!T" and The plans for tonight go in the trash, and you both 'know' what happened, even tho YOU DON'T.

Being FREE Means NOT THAT YOU CAN DO WOT YOU WANT.  When does getting EXACTLY WHAT WE WANT REALLY FREE US?

The Freedom I experience is simply FREEDOM FROM SELF.

I Know Me.

I FOUND OUT MY Life Purpose....The REAL ONE: To Relieve People of their Ills, Mental And Physical, as related to the Interpersonal street we Base Life On.....

If I Free Me of Me, I have VERY LITTLE wants.  At All.
It does seem to me that it is Very Silly to have a Fixed Set of Rules....On ANYTHING.

Oh Yes, there are some really important ones to me:

Love Honestly.

Give the Benefit of the Doubt...For What do I really know about your Motives?

Remember that My Whole Life Experience is Only In My HeAd, about 1/2 Square Foot.

The Only Thing I control is ME....and the comp at times...  ;-)

And itz all about taking Care of Me.  Everything is.

I Know that Loving You will probably be a Good Thing in what we can create together.......

itz like if I wanted to build a building.  I scream out orders about the brick laying, the stucco, the wood, the roof....and it never gets done.

Now if we take a piece of paper and plan out the details, and sometimes details are good, ......(!)..... we know a little more about what to accomplish.

If we show sum1 HOW to lay the brick, set the stone, and nail the Lumber, we get a little further along..if we realize WE are working TOGETHER in this type or any type of Relationship, we succeed....and what we gotta do is STOP being an order seeker.  You can be so overflowing with a feeling; and ya know, Itz OK to Feel Good.

Memorial Day

Memorial Day is Upon Us!  Here's what I found on the 'net 'bout it:  Memorial Day is a federal holiday observed annually in the United States on the last Monday of May.  Memorial Day is a day of remembering the men and women who died while serving in the United States Armed Forces.  Formerly known as Decoration Day, it originated after the American Civil War to commemorate the Union soldiers who died in the Civil War. By the 20th century Memorial Day had been extended to honor all Americans who have died in all wars. It typically marks the start of the summer vacation season, while Labor Day marks its end.

Many people visit cemeteries and memorials, particularly to honor those who have died in military service. Many volunteers place an American flag on each grave in national cemeteries.

By the early 20th century, Memorial Day was an occasion for more general expressions of memory, as people visited the graves of their deceased relatives in church cemeteries, whether they had served in the military or not. It also became a long weekend increasingly devoted to shopping, family gatherings, fireworks, trips to the beach, and national media events such as the Indianapolis 500 auto race, held since 1911 on the Sunday of Memorial Day weekend.

Annual Decoration Days for particular cemeteries are held on a Sunday in late spring or early summer in some rural areas of the American South, notably in the mountains. In cases involving a family graveyard where remote ancestors as well as those who were deceased more recently are buried, this may take on the character of an extended family reunion to which some people travel hundreds of miles. People gather on the designated day and put flowers on graves and renew contacts with kinfolk and others. There often is a religious service and a "dinner on the ground," the traditional term for a potluck meal in which people used to spread the dishes out on sheets or tablecloths on the grass. It is believed that this practice began before the American Civil War and thus may reflect the real origin of the "memorial day" idea."-From Wiki-

So, We find out it is an Older Practice based upon a Family and a Loss Of Someone Special Day!!

I've Lost someone special, and it never fails.  You have this I shoulda, I coulda, I didn't...what ever when you're faced with this Finality in Relationships.  We all Die, We all Leave Loved Ones Behind.

Wouldn't you Like To Think You Were Special enough to have Someone Hold you in Memory and Perform some sort of Action because of this feeling? 

In America, We Think So For Those Who DIED HORRIBLY To Protect Our Freedoms, Our Rights, Our Religion or Lack of it.............ANYTHING YOU CHOOSE..