Once again, I Opened my eyes in this world.
LOVE.
That was on my mind. After a Plethora of kisses distributed freely (ALL OVER) My Wife, without a hint of expectancy on my part, I stumbled my way to the ofc. where the miserable computer awaits my next command.
I've thot about the peeps that have related to me wot is Love:
"I'll Die For You!"
"Can't They See wot I Go Thru For Them"
"It hurtz"
hello.
Knock KnocK!
While Love IS About Sacrifice, it is also about...LOVE.
We've Learned, Here, that Time together is NOT GUARANTEED AT ALL.
We gotz these control issues here on Earth, and We Think That Control is Necessary........ Necessary?
I Have a Business Acquaintance that maintains that you GOTTA be Like this or That.....I was seen to be too aloof and happy, and that he has talked to 'Others'. about this.
It'z Inappropriate, I Learned.........Hmmmmm.
Now, I'm the kind that will go to the ends of the earth for you, and Itz a VERY FAMILIAR PLACE FOR ME. I Also have learned, as evidenced by MY ENTIRE LIFE'S WORK, that I am a person who LIKES to see others free of Pain...I've Caused quite a bit, too, that IT IS NOT possible for ME to Fix it...some things Can't Be fixed, for sure.
By The Way, I DO NOT OWN ANYTHING..Itz on Loan While I'm Here, Visiting Earth. You are, She is, it is, Days are...ALL ON LOAN.....
When I Changed Myself, a Few Days ago, to be less friggin emotional , I KNEW ALREADY That She is NOT Responsible for My Feelings.
The detail here is that we ALWAYS THINK, FEEL, ACT....In THAT VERY ORDER.
"He's Being that Way again, Oy Vay!!.....""What the Hell do you want to be so mean for"".....then the feeling of Disgust, and a Lump in you of "It's the Same Old Sh!T" and The plans for tonight go in the trash, and you both 'know' what happened, even tho YOU DON'T.
Being FREE Means NOT THAT YOU CAN DO WOT YOU WANT. When does getting EXACTLY WHAT WE WANT REALLY FREE US?
The Freedom I experience is simply FREEDOM FROM SELF.
I Know Me.
I FOUND OUT MY Life Purpose....The REAL ONE: To Relieve People of their Ills, Mental And Physical, as related to the Interpersonal street we Base Life On.....
If I Free Me of Me, I have VERY LITTLE wants. At All.
It does seem to me that it is Very Silly to have a Fixed Set of Rules....On ANYTHING.
Oh Yes, there are some really important ones to me:
Love Honestly.
Give the Benefit of the Doubt...For What do I really know about your Motives?
Remember that My Whole Life Experience is Only In My HeAd, about 1/2 Square Foot.
The Only Thing I control is ME....and the comp at times... ;-)
And itz all about taking Care of Me. Everything is.
I Know that Loving You will probably be a Good Thing in what we can create together.......
itz like if I wanted to build a building. I scream out orders about the brick laying, the stucco, the wood, the roof....and it never gets done.
Now if we take a piece of paper and plan out the details, and sometimes details are good, ......(!)..... we know a little more about what to accomplish.
If we show sum1 HOW to lay the brick, set the stone, and nail the Lumber, we get a little further along..if we realize WE are working TOGETHER in this type or any type of Relationship, we succeed....and what we gotta do is STOP being an order seeker. You can be so overflowing with a feeling; and ya know, Itz OK to Feel Good.
